Wednesday, November 18, 2009

MY Top Albums of 2009!

(in no particular order)

#1 Three Days Grace - Life Starts Now
#2 Brand New Eyes - Paramore
#3 Comes and Goes - Default
#4 Artwork - The Used
#5 Dear Agony - Breaking Benjamin
#6 Rock N' Roll - Social Code
#7 Old Crows / Young Cardinals - Alexisonfire
#8 This Is It Soundtrack - Michael Jackson
#9 Masterpiece Theatre - Marianas Trench
#10 The Promise - Bif Naked

I want to know yours!!!

Saturday, November 7, 2009


Aloha! (I wish we were all somewhere very, very warm. which is not here.)
How is everybody doing? It's been a long time. I miss you all, so much.
What ever happened to writing once a week? I know, I've been slacking just as much.
So here's my update:
School is going really well. I only have 2 more tests and then I have my theory final on Nov 20th. Then I do the drive to Calgary to see Kayla and to go see New Moon! We're both pretty excited for it, it's gonna be a great movie I think! Much larger budget this go round.
I'm home next weekend, like the 14-15. Hopefully if you (Jamie and Janine) don't have plans we can see each other. Maybe Saturday night? Let me know what your plans are. Haven't seen you in much too long!
I have finally caved in, and I started watching Grey's Anatomy. It is SO addicting. Personally, so far, I think Addison is really nice. People warn me that that isn't long-lived. And HOW SAD IS IT THAT DENNY DIES?! ahhh my life, saddest episode ever.
I'm sorry I don't really have a whole lot to tell you guys. My life is pretty boring these days.. Get up, go to school, come home, eat, study, watch TV, bed. I don't really go out with any of the girls in my class on the weekends... today Carmen, a girl from Saskatoon who I worked with at Sunsera is visiting Edmonton with a friend so we walked down Whyte Ave. for a while.. and now I'm thinking it's time to study. Well I dunno if any of you are still reading this thing or not, but it would be great to hear from you. All. Hope you have a good weekend. Love you.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Been a while...

I thought I would break the streak of us not posting every week....

I'm alive... but very ill. No school for me this week. 2 midterms next week, lovely way to celebrate turning 22... writing a midterm, then studying for one the day after! I have to also write a quiz that I missed from being ill this week.

How are m'ladies doin?!

miss you guys,

Tuesday, October 6, 2009


I've been having a crazy week (and it's only Tuesday). I had a presentation this morning which caused me to be up about an hour earlier than usual. Normally, this would be not such a big deal but I was up until about 2 in the morning due to a nap I had earlier in the day. Bad idea within itself. I then decided that today would be a good day to go to the gym after class as well. I'm wiped!
Midterm # 1 Thursday! Yikes.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

My life on the fly...

Hey girlies.

Well I've been super busy with nothing important what-so-ever. BUT here's a quick update on yours truly.

I was supposed to go to the interview for a receptionist job at an optometrist's place... but long story short they were asking too much of my time for me to be comfortable with (and that's not just being said because Sport Chek is like... beyond giving) so I respectfully declined. When I start school in November (HOORAY!) I want to be able to focus and go through them as quick and thorough as I can. So I applied at the Liquor Store for part time work. Keep going to the Chek 2 times a week... throw another job in there every so often... should work out well.

Liz I've spent the majority of my downtime watching Friends. Again TOTALLY forgot how funny some of the are.

Kayla... no good about the lung thing... that had to have been scary!!!

Dad's in Winnipeg right now... jamming with the boys. I came to terms that I have my friends and I can go out for coffees and whatnot... he doesn't really have anyone to just 'hang' with... so that's why he's been going out of town a bit lately. I mean I totally understand. Ummm I've finished up Bethan and Doug (the twins from the lake)'s college package. A lot of random stuff (Janine can vouch for that!) including a one dollar pregnancy test. Hahaha.

And finally, rode on Aaron's bike today. I will fully admit I was downright terrified.... but I can definately see the thrill =)

Later days!

Monday, September 21, 2009

Contaminated Lethbridge Air!

So as you all know I cannot move anywhere without ending up in the hospital at least once. Seems like some sort of a ritual these days.
Here's my first Lethbridge experience:

I decided that since I'm on such a health kick lately (which I'm unsure I have told any of you about)I decided to go for a run last night. As I got about half way through it I took in a deep breath that followed with an extreme burning feeling all the way down to my lungs. It felt like when you're super sick and have junk in your lungs so you rattle and wheeze. I thought perhaps I pushed myself a little to hard to I began to walk thinking that I would just catch my breath. I saw a park and began to cut through it as it was the shortest route home. The closer I got to home the worse it got and by the time I was home I could hardly swallow. So off to the hospital Joseph took me where I stayed for about four hours before I could take shallow breaths normally. Apparently what happened is I breathed in something not cool that caused some type of reaction and inflamation of my lungs/bronch-something or others. I'm okay now but no deep breaths, two inhailers and some type of antiinflamitory pills for a week. It may take up to a month to feel better!
Scary stuff!

Saturday, September 19, 2009

I just miss my dogs.
Both of them. A lot.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

you guys!

Hi, loves.
I miss you all, so much.
So I have some minor wedding news.. its back to just the core 4 for the wedding party. Evan didn't want to have 10 people and he didn't have another person to pick anyway so he kinda vedo-ed it. It's okay, I talked to Marena about it and she was understanding. I'll get her involved somehow. I was looking forward to having her there with us but I know it would have been a little different than how we all envisioned that day. You know, everyone else already knew each other really well, including the groomsmen!
ps don't forget, bridesmaid dress shopping the saturday before thanksgiving. you all have to attend.
I'm not gonna bore you with any more wedding stuff.
School is the same old, same old.. studying, writing too easy tests.. buying lunch.. frick it's a bad habit that I shouldn't have started. Speaking of bad habits, how's the non-smoking going Kayla?
Evan's coming here for the weekend, to check out my sweet pad(not.) It's so ghetto, I find bugs on the floor all the time.. ew.

BTW... They're making a new park in Universal Orlando that is COMPLETELY Harry Potter themed. Like, made to look real life. It's an illusion at times, made to make the castle look 200 meters high! how cool is that?! and there's a roller coaster, and all the legit stores and candy and everything. its gonna be so awesome, i have to go there.

I'm sorry my posts are so lame. this is my first time ever doing this, and I'm sure you all know I'm not a very deep or creative person. I wear my heart on my sleeve and anytime I'm feeling anything, you all know about it within 4 hours. I don't really have any philosophical questions to ask..
I'm happy to hear that you (janine and Kayla) are enjoying school. and Jam, good for you to be looking for a new job! what are you thinking for?? How's the maybe going back to school plan going for you??

Okay i really have to go to bed. 6:10 comes way too early. Miss you all, love love.

My turn!

Okay Kayla,

What Janine wrote is absolutely true. (Although I'll argue the true love comes once in a lifetime... because sometimes, if you're lucky it can come around again. My Grandma ((Dad's Mom)) lost her husband early on and she loved him dearly, but then my Papa came around and their love was different... but completely undeniable)

Now I can agree with your comment about Liz getting married. Liz, don't get us wrong we are BEYOND thrilled for you this is hugely exciting. But of course being girls theres going to be some ounce of jealousy. Now Kayla, I know that you think that you missed out with Jamie... and rightfully so. You gave your whole heart to him and he destroyed it in one flash. But he came with different baggage than anyone deserves. I'm sorry but no matter how many times you apologize... he still lied, he stole... he had problems beyond what a relationship can heal.
The only reason you're doubting yourself is because your tired of being alone. Right?

Not that I'm one too speak. Thank you Janine for those really sweet words about Mom and Dad. I told him about it and Dad thought it was extremely flattering... he got teary. However I can say this. It's that belief in what love is about that has been my downfall. Seeing all the things Dad did for Mom and vice-versa made me the biggest judge of love you'll probably ever meet. I've had my chances (I've even gone with the flow for the hell of it.... ahem Brock) but deep down my gut just wasn't in it. Ya there are moments of awes and how cutes. But at the end of the day I'll always look at it if it were Mom and Dad. Yeah they fought, but there was something undeniable behind it. Unfortunately that's what I'm keeping my eye out for... and double unfortunately you can't tell that after one night of meeting someone. I mean Janine even jokingly said maybe i'll fall in love with rohrke (we're going for dinner tomorrow night) and all I could do was laugh inside. Something inside me went: Heck no. Poor kid never stood a chance.

Kayla when someone comes along, and for all you know you could have already met him. You're going to know. In your gut. That doesn't mean that he's all you can think about (though probably is) and theres going to be things about him that absolutely frusterate the hell out of you. But that knot in your stomach (not the kind you're taking medicine for haha) is going to beg to differ.

Come on, no one likes the idea of being alone. But that's when you have to cope, really get in tune with yourself. Stop looking for love, because it'll find you. We're all good people, so in the end good will come to us. Like I've always said to Janine, you're gonna laugh at yourself for worrying about this when the guy comes along... because you're gonna go, really? This is beyond my expectations... sheesh!

On a tangent though... isn't it the most frusterating when you see people who are getting married... and you go... how the hell did that happen? What about me? Yeah... those are my favourites.... cept I always feel like an asshole in the end.

And Janine is most certainly right. We all have our bouquet to catch. Guess we gotta find more friends who are getting married =P

Love to you all. xoxo

Tuesday, September 15, 2009


I do believe there is ONE person for everyone. I believe that we have the opportunity to hit many great lessons along that road in finding THE ONE. But ideally everyone who gets married believes they are marrying their "one" otherwise they wouldn't do it. Ya sure some people get divorced, but IF or WHEN they move on that person will always be number 2 will they not? You may be a better person going into the relationship because you'll know what needs to be done to make it work, but they aren't the person you originally thought you'd be with.

I mean come on look at us ..... what are the chances that 4 best friends all come from strong families? No divorce.

I may not believe in soul mates, I do believe there are many people out there who make us better people, who we are (ie. you guys) but true love comes once in a lifetime. There will always be something missing for every other person you're with. You'll know it when you know it.
In risk of say too much, look at Laramie and I .... we always clicked as friends, great friends. We were great roommates, but I feel something for him that I've never felt. He is TRULY my best friend I am nothing but myself with him and as much as we piss each other off and push every button we can we love each other. And we make a point of letting each other know that.

I think my greatest influence in life (relationship wise) is/has been Jamie's parents. I must admit after I read those letters your dad wrote Jamie my heart ached that your mom was gone. Knowing that a love like theirs actually had problems too made me realize that its not just Lar and I who fight. Every relationship has downfalls and issues and arguments. You either get through them or you don't. And Jamie your parents went through it all, and stuck together. Your dad is one of the greatest men alive. And your mom was definatly one of the greatest, bravest women i've ever met. I believe in love because of them. I may have never talked to them about any of my relationships but by you doing so it's helped me make a lot of good and bad choices that I needed to make to be where I am. I am in love. And I know i'm not getting married anytime soon, but I really wouldn't mind if Laramie is who I get to spend the rest of my life with.

Happiness is being married to your best friend.

Kayla, you'll find someone who makes you feel 10 fold what Jamie made you feel. I know this because never did I think someone would take Kiley's place. And now that I have moved on from that I know that he has no place to take. He made me feel great when things were working but that entire greatness doesn't compare to one good day in my relationship now. He's out there for all of us. Someone got to start the vows right?
We all have a bouquet to catch.

all my love xox.

The Great Debate.

Hello hello ladies!

Hope all is well back in the homeland.

I have a question for you guys, and I need an honest opinion.

Is there just one person out there for everyone?

The more I think about this question the more I run myself in circles. I mean if there really is just one person for everyone, then did I lose mine? Because I sure as hell haven't been able to feel anything even remotely close to what I felt for Jamie. Cause if that's so I feel completely ripped off. On the other hand, perhaps I haven't met my one person. Then I don't feel ripped off at all, because if I can feel more than what I felt with Jamie then I say I'm pretty fortunate.

Okay so say there is more than one person out there for everyone. Then where the heck is he? Don't get me wrong, I'm totally digging this single game. It's so much less complicated, and I get to be selfish and do all the Kayla things I want to do, when I want to do them. But with Liz getting married does anyone else feel a little behind? I mean come on, we will be 22 when this all goes down (not that 22 is old to be single or anything, because I think I could handle the whole married thing closer to 30 but it's nice to know?), and I am probably more than likely going stag man (not that I mind because honestly who has the time to spend with a date at your best friends wedding). But wouldn't it be nice to have someone to dance with? And wouldn't it be nice that if I actually caught the bouquet, that I genuinely could be a little creeped out by the thought that I was next and that someone I am with could be the one? I kinda wanna feel creeped out! I think I'm just going to dodge the who bouquet thing.

Anyways... a little bit of a tangent.

So yes, one or more?

Friday, September 11, 2009

I can take a hint!

I just about cried while reading about the love letters .... probably a bad idea if I actually do read them lol. Last person who wrote me anything was ....Kiley. And we all know where those words came from.

As for how things are with me ... Great! I am actually loving school. My classmates. My teachers. My classes. Everything this year is actually being learnt because we NEED it for Massage Therapy therefore they are actually teaching us things then telling us how it relates. Where as last year they told us random things about the body ... and then said BUT you don't need that for your career. Dumb. So things are great! I'm really looking forward to the year, and grad on May 28th yay!!! I just hope its not month 1 excitement and all it and the motivation goes away after that.

As for everything else, things are good. Shiloh has medicine which makes her eye feel better but she does go for surgery on the 24th and hopefully that will fix her all up and not rob my bank .. again.
Laramie and I are doing fantastic, trying to push him into thinking about school (here or in the States)
Chili's opens on the 24th, so training starts next week! money money money!

I'm glad you guys are enjoying school! It's sort of nice to be in a groove. And Jamie ... well i'm glad you are looking into school YAY!

I don't really have much else going on, going to go cook some breakfast for supper mmmm!!!!

Love you all bunches!

rammmmbleeee onn......

It's so good to hear that you guys are doing well in your classes (Janine I have yet to hear haha)Dad's off to Atlantic City today to follow the band... all paid for by Robin himself. How rad is that?! Dad's really excited and so I'm I to have some time off and the house to myself.

Unfortunately my hours at work are allowing me to have a lot more free time after this week... I'm down to three shifts a week. BS as far as I'm concerned. So Jamie will be off to search for another job sometime in the near future.

So since Dad's been gone I've been doing a bunch of cleaning and sorting of Mom's stuff; pictures, cards, letters etc. I was pleasantly surprised when I came across two letters from my Dad to my Mom. Full on, tear jerking love letters written while they were dating and had to spend the summers apart. Apparently even the bad-ass camero driving hippy has a soft spot. One day I'll have to let you read them. They're beautiful.

Tomorrow I'm hoping I get the tattoo.... horray! Then more work. Not horray.

I gotta go to the doctors now... gotta get off these wacko pills, check out while my ear is still effed and see what I can do about my f'ed foot haha. I'm just falling apart.

Oh... and I dyed my hair (BY MYSELF JANINE! haha) and it went orange.... but I fixed it... lemon juice is a miracle is all I have to say =) I'm blondeeeeeee again!!! YAY!


Wednesday, September 9, 2009

First Day Of School (Insert Finding Nemo Voice Here)

Welp, day one is done and over with. I only had two classes today since no Labs or Tutorials start until next week.
Consumer Behavior was first, and I have this extremely hilarious Mexican teacher. He's so rad and goes by the name Roberto Bello... AWESOME! We have assigned readings that we need to have done before every class and he has the "Shame Bell" that he dings a gazillion times if you answer a question wrong as he yells "For Shame!".
I'm kinda tempted to answer a question wrong just to hear his Mexican accent! So funny! We have 3 individual papers to write, one group project/presentation that needs to be atleast 40 pages long, and then the midterm and final... talk about a lot of work for one class!
The class itself actually seems really interesting. We basically learn about why people buy certain brands, why they listen to this type of music, why other brands are not so exciting to them, celebrity status... kinda sweet stuff. And why shopping with the opposite sex can be difficult haha!
STATS was next which I am extremely worried about. I haven't taken a STATS class since first year University which was more than 3 years ago. Yikes! Once again my prof is foreign... Paki-ish but not!? Somewhere around that area. Thick accent yet again, but all class he was like "I just want you all to pass, I know thats what you want to so do your homework, ask for help and go to the tutorials! We have a lot of assignments and quizes which will hopefully be easy marks." The final is worth 50% though... YOUCH!
Tomorrow I have Psychology, Sociology and Managing Responsibility in a Global Environment. I think the last one is basically an ethics course. From what I hear it has a lot to do with looking at case studies and applying concepts to them. I think we do a big thing on Dove commercials, which will be really interesting.
So far, so good.
School might not suck this year!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Well hello ladies!!
I just wanted to drop a line. I don't really have a whole lot to say. I had another exam today that went well, I hope I keep my study habits alive. I can already feel them lagging, for example, I'm "studying" right now. BRUTAL!
I sold Tibby today. Not sad one bit! Glad to get that piece of shit out of my life and get rid of some of that debt I hear people talk about all the time. Soon I will have none. Oh, wait.. I'll have like $200,000 worth! boo! The house is going to be so great you guys, I can't wait until it's finished and we can all hang out there.
Today I was getting ready for school, and I was planning on eating some Kashi.. (cereal for you non-healthy folks) and I put the milk in, took a big bite.. MY MILK WAS FUCKING SOUR. not impressed, four days early. Boo you, Sobey's. So I went tonight to Superstore, gonna give it a chance to dazzle me with it's milk. I also bought a new cd folder.. it was about time. I had about 100 cd's rammed into a 50. It was SO HEAVY, and awkward to hold cause it wouldn't zip up.
Okayyy so I think it's time to get the fuck outta dodge here, I just realized I'm telling you about my cd holder. Sorry guys.
Miss you and love you lots!

Monday, September 7, 2009


I have been talking to this guy online for about a month now, we went out and had a drink last night.
It went well.. really well.

Crossing fingers?!

Saturday, September 5, 2009

I'm here don't you worry.

Heya girlys,

Okay so I know that this was MY idea and whatnot and I clearly haven't stuck with the idea because I'm a loser... yadda yadda. Well I'm here. I'm sorry but I've been very distracted these last few weeks. I don't know what it is but I can't shut my mind off about things!

I've been coming home from work every night and either seeing people I haven't seen yet since I got home, or I spend it on the deck pondering the world. Life, love, family & friends... you know... the usual.

I promise I will write shortly about my week and how "fun" it's been over at the Chek. Because we all know its never a dull moment there.

But in the meantime I wanted to say after reading even the few posts we've all made.... I can already tell that this is something that's going to keep our friendship going... for the sheer sake of I already feel closer to you guys then I have in a while.... it's amazing how quickly your thoughts can pour out when your typing... we're going to get to know one another a lot differently through reading our thoughts... (does that make sense)

Anywho... I'm off to get ready for the Pat (ew. Chantel's friend and the Huskies are meeting up with us there... ew.) and the possibly the Branch with Janine and Laramie. (If they decide to be cool and come dancing haha)

Lovelove to you all.

Thursday, September 3, 2009



If I give you girls any advice, please please please take the following:
-- Do not, I repeat, DO NOT drive 8 1/2 hours in a vehicle that only has luke warm airconditioning in +30 weather. NOT FUN.

The move went relatively smoothly. I just finished unpacking. I am attempting to settle into my new life. Which is the weird thing. This is the 4th time in 2 years I have moved and attempted to start a 'new life'. The thing that I have come to realize is that all this time that I was thinking I was settling into a new life, I wasn't actually doing that at all. I was just writing another chapter in it.

I have never been so sure of myself or the decisions I have made than I am now. I have the 3 of you to thank for that. Through thick and thin, smart and stupid, and pretty much anytime of friggen problem people in this world can go through... you've all had my back.

I am so glad that we decided that this would be a good way to keep in touch. Makes me feel that even though I don't have you guys here with me, I actually kinda do.

I went to orientation today for a couple hours. Joseph and I then quickly realized that all these things they had us going to we had seen and heard before. This is the third time I have been a new student at a post secondary institute. I think I got it down pat. Didn't feel like hearing the lectures about how to study, and balance partying with academics, and budgeting the cash...
Which means I have nothing to do until Wednesday. What the hell am I going to do for that many days? Im all done cleaning and unpacking and am broke as shit lol.

Yesterday Joe and I went out for cheap wings and beer to a place called The Blarney Stone. 3 bucks for 12 wings... and man are they good. I was a little hung over this morning which made the heat and orientation that much more terrible! The remainder of my day was spent watching Season 6 of One Tree Hill because I really am that sad haha.

Anyways, I miss you, I love you, and I miss you.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Time Flys.

Well, today was day 1 of year 2. 162 more days to go. Plus a month if I decide to do sports training.
Doesn't seem like that long. But then again, neither does T3&A, Blaze, Dore Lake or any of it.

It's hard to think that this is our 5th year out of high school. We have officially been out longer than we were in. That's crazy talk. It's been over a year and a half since we sat at Moxies together, and braved Diva's and witnessed Evan in the Joe Dirt wig. It's been almost 4 months since we sat in Original Joe's and moved all our berries to Liz's drink. It HAS been 4 months since Sue passed. It's been almost 5 months since Laramie and I started dating.
It's been near 9 months since I was literally broken, and I don't feel like I was ever broken at all. It's been 10 months since the best thing in my life happened (Shiloh). It's been 1 month since I moved into my sisters basement. It's less than a year away from Liz and Evan's Wedding Day. It's been almost 6 years that we have been driving.
It's been a week, since 2 of my best friends moved to AB. It's been one day since I started year 2.

It's crazy where the time goes. And I don't know where I am going with it, or where I am going with this. But i'm glad you guys are coming with me wherever it is :)

Love You x's 3.
RIP Sue.

Friday, August 28, 2009


Helloooo ladies!
It seems Edmonton is actually a very nice city. A little busy and stressful to drive in, especially when you don't know where you're going, which I don't!!
My school is in the Bell Tower (sounds cool hey) on the 21st floor. I haven't had the pleasure of looking out the windows yet to see what kind of view we'll have. It's right smack in the middle of downtown so I'm sure there'll be lots to see! There is an amazing food court in the mall one street over but unfortunately, being a student, I'll have to bring my own lunch and won't get to eat there often at all.
I went to school for my orientation today and wow, that was such a waste of time. She didn't really tell me anything I couldn't figure out on my own. Well I did get my books, and they weigh probably 20 pounds. The sucky thing is, I'm going to have to carry those damn books back and forth everyday so I can study at home. Maybe I'll be ripped when I come home. My school's from 8-3 which is nice, since I'll have to study til approximately 8 every night!! YUCK. This is definitely going to be a lot of hard work. I'm going to have 2-3 quizzes a week to prepare for and there are also major tests throughout the course. I have to have a 75% to pass the class.. but I'm setting a high goal and I want to graduate with an 85% or higher!!
There's tons of stuff to do here, so please come and visit if you can, and we can rock West Ed or Whyte Ave.
Miss you guys lots.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Thank you for being a lifetime.

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Just so you all know.

I love you all very much.

More than any of you will ever know.
Thank you for always being there, even when I haven't been.

All my love. All ways.
so how about my name was supposed to be lizzard with a heart.. and this is what i got. what the fuck?